I remember I kept thinking that I know you never would.

I was betrayed by a friend. Yeah, I know I'm more sensitive to a lot of things than most people are, and I am really the one responsible, since it wasn't the first time.

I tend to get really hurt by people who I hold to expectations that they are completely unaware of


Half of the time I don't even tell them that my feelings are hurt, because, I guess that's the trade off. I'm just oversensitive or over-excitable. I should expect to get hurt. Why should they cater to my personality faults??


I also find it incredibly ironic since I had constant difficulties maintaining the friendship due to both personal history and my trust issues. Since both were thrown out the window in the same conversation I guess I should just accept the fact that my instincts are always right. I just wish I hadn't reserved so much time rebuilding something that was ultimately doomed. But that is life I guess, I guess...

I think I may be setting myself up for failure. nothing new at all.

I can't get myself to write anything substantial in this fucker.



I've feel a lot of things but have such odd ways of expressing everything...

OE


anyhow, I've felt extremely regular lately.

I'm determined to find a way to erase you from me.

this is it....

I've lost the will to fight.

beautiful things

every time I hear a new gorgeous, beautiful, amazing song, I wonder how I survived the days of my life prior to the knowledge of this music.

I wish I knew what was so wrong with me....

in love all over again, I hate it.